Who doesn’t love a good sleep? Sleeping is the best. But I’m the type of person who sleeping doesn’t always come gracefully to. It’s gotten a lot better these days, but I have spent many a night trying to fall asleep for hours – on average it often took me an hour to fall asleep. My brain just doesn’t like to shut off, so I’m lying in bed, thinking and thinking, and not sleeping. Nothing I did ever seemed to work, so I’m glad that lately I haven’t been having that much trouble falling asleep.
I’m also a very light sleeper, so sometimes I’ll wake up in the middle of the night and then take forever to fall back asleep, or I’ll wake up at five on a weekend and not be able to fall back asleep so I eventually get up and do something by six in the morning.
This is where the problem of napping comes in. Napping’s great. Except I hate it, and I try, at all costs, to avoid it. Because when I take a nap during the day, it makes it near impossible for me to sleep at night, and then I’ve thrown myself back into the vicious, vicious sleep-deprived cycle.
Unfortunately, there are times where taking a nap is unavoidable. I’ll be in the middle of doing something and then all of a sudden I get so tired I can no longer function and I simply HAVE to take a nap, or else I won’t be able to get anything done. So I do. And I tell myself, it’s fine, it’s okay, I’m just going to nap for half an hour, I’m just going to nap for an hour, then I’ll get up and be alert again and everything will be fine. But that is NEVER the case. I can’t just nap for half an hour, or an hour. I end up not being able to pull myself out of my bed haze for two hours or so and then all of a sudden the day’s disappeared and here I am, wide awake at night again. Like I said, vicious, vicious cycle.
Not that this happens every day of course. It’s a rare occurrence, but it is annoying when it does happen. Because I love sleep. And I would like to enjoy it. I don’t want it to be another thing to struggle over.
Luckily, I do seem to have gotten much better at falling asleep within a reasonable amount of time. I think it’s because I’m finally working a regular schedule. I get up at the same time every day, save for weekends, at a relatively early hour – it’s made my sleeping patterns consistent. I’m not getting up at five one morning, then eight the next, then six the next, etc. So that’s nice. I’ll be interested in seeing when, once the regularity of my schedule disappears, which it unfortunately will be in November as I’ll be back to working different days every week, my ease of sleeping disappears with it. I hope not. Because it’s been really nice not taking an hour to fall asleep. Really, really nice.
I guess I’ll have to wait and see.